Update/8 Weeks Today

Yesterday we had our 8 week ultrasound and everything looks great! Baby has a strong heartbeat and is about the size of a kidney bean. My cervix is measuring about 3 cm and my cerclage appears to be high and tight which is good news. I'm off work today and hopefully will catch up on some z's. Will post more later.

Little Surprises

Yes we are pregnant again! 7 weeks today. Next week we have our first ultra sound to check viability. I previously met with Dr. Hays to discuss our plan for the pregnancy. Nothing out of the norm just yet. Will start progesterone shots beginning week 16 to help with preterm labor and my TAC should do the rest. Dr Hays confirmed the due date is Jan 5 but because of my condition the baby will be delivered by c-section with an estimated date of December 29. Let's hope for a uneventful pregnancy. Hold on tight...December here we come!

Happy Mother's Day

To all beautiful mommies and their little angels. This poem was shared by my Abbylooper sister. xoxo

What Makes A Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today,
I asked, "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say:
A Mother has a baby,
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?


Yes, you can, he replied
With confidence in his voice,
I give many women babies,
When they leave it is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day,
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath,
and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing Here...


If you could see your child smile
With other children and say,
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here!"
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly,


My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow is where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear,
"Mommy, Please don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I am here"


So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are okay.
Your babies are here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lessons there are through,
And on the day that you come home,
they'll be at the gates waiting for you


So now you see
What makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart,
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.


Author Unknown

http://thegriefeffect.blogspot.com/

"Always remind her that she's braver than she believes, stronger than she seems and smarter than she thinks."

Quote of the Day

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving... concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." ~ Elizabeth Kubler-Ross ~

Change

As I am downloading and listening to music from iTunes I became inspired to write a little in my blog. So much has been on my mind but I haven't made time to express it. Wow, I can't believe its April. It will be 5 weeks since my surgery and I feel great. I am heading back to work on Monday. It was much needed time for healing and reflection. I’ve had a chance to meet some wonderful women who've shared their personal stories...from heartbreak to miracles. I’ve learned we all have a story. One that inspires and touches the heart. But most importantly a story that makes a greater impact on our lives. That impact brings change, a good change, if you choose it to be.


My personal story has brought me inspiration to change. I've watch myself grow in ways I never knew I could. I'd always let fear get in the way. I believe that fear equals failure. Many of us will not change because we are afraid of failing. I 'm here to tell you that sometimes you don't have a choice, fear could smack you in the face at any given moment when you least expect it and you have no choice but to change...will it be good or bad? It's your decision. I made that choice when I lost my son. I could sit in fear for the rest of my life but I knew that is not me. Instead I embraced the fear of change and turned it into something meaningful to myself and others.

Change is good and I need that as part of my healing process…I think we all do at some point in our lives. If you don’t change how do you learn more about yourself and become a better person? For those of you who are planners like me, remember your plan can take a detour at any given moment....mine did. What's next? Well...My change has inspired me to start all over again.